But another question was still lingering. Why the water lying in front of me cannot quench my thirst? And I was answered as per following discussion.
ਤੂੰ ਜਲਨਿਧਿ ਹਮ ਮੀਨ ਤੁਮਾਰੇ ॥ (You are the Ocean of Water, and I am Your fish.)
I was looking at wrong ocean. My thirst was not physical, it was spiritual. And I should have tried to find the answer in ‘Ocean of Formless One‘. But why I was not able to understand it. Since I did not try to become ‘fish’ that is my ego no matter how much subtle was stopping me from diving in Ocean. What kind of ‘ego’ a fish has while I had to search in Salty Water to find the ocean as per following words:
ਖਾਰ ਸਮੁਦ੍ਰੁ ਢੰਢੋਲੀਐ ਇਕੁ ਮਣੀਆ ਪਾਵੈ ॥ (Searching the salty sea, one finds the pearl.)
Here as per my understanding, salty water is tears. I had to dive deep through my tears of gratitude into mind, churn it and find the pearls. All the emotions triggering in me were like waves in water. Each passing emotion if linked with gratitude would have resulted in tears in the eyes. There will always be moments when an individual will try to stop tears. Simply because the salinity of tears may hurt somewhere else. But I was strictly told not to leave in following words:
ਕਬੀਰ ਸਮੁੰਦੁ ਨ ਛੋਡੀਐ ਜਉ ਅਤਿ ਖਾਰੋ ਹੋਇ ॥ (Kabeer, do not leave the ocean, even if it is very salty.)
Even following the advise something was missing. I was not able to reap the benefits of ‘Ocean of Knowledge – Dhan Shri Guru Granth Sahib Ji‘. What was missing that continued to trouble me. And then again by ‘Grace of Great Guru‘ I came across following words:
ਤੂੰ ਜਲਨਿਧਿ ਤੂੰ ਫੇਨੁ ਬੁਦਬੁਦਾ ਤੁਧੁ ਬਿਨੁ ਅਵਰੁ ਨ ਭਾਲੀਐ ਜੀਉ ॥੧॥ (You are the Ocean of Water, and You are the foam and the bubbles on its surface. I cannot see any other except You, Lord.)
Well now it was obvious I was comprehending myself different from ‘The Source – WHOM Baba Nanak has described as ੴ‘. And that gave me the glimpse of ‘Duality’. The same ‘Duality’ which ‘Gurbaani – The Words of Guru‘ describe in following words:
ਵਸਤੂ ਅੰਦਰਿ ਵਸਤੁ ਸਮਾਵੈ ਦੂਜੀ ਹੋਵੈ ਪਾਸਿ ॥ (One thing can be absorbed into another thing, but duality keeps them apart.)
So, I was/am victim of ‘Duality’. The ‘Duality’ which kept me confused that I failed to understand; I belong to ‘The One Source’, I am just ‘His Part’. It is just i need to change my perceptive and start looking things as one as described by ‘Gurbaani‘. But again I was wrong. How could I ever do that since I am just a mortal and ‘Great Guru‘ is ‘Divine Himself‘. Thus it required deep diving, deep understanding and deep involvement with ‘The Guru‘. ‘Dhan Shri Guru Granth Sahib Ji‘ was calling me and I could not control myself on ‘His Call‘. Under ‘His Grace and Divine Light‘ decided to write on ‘Duality’, its impact, its appearance and how it could be curbed.